I’m getting quite
good at peeing outside. It’s something I’ve always had trouble with, never
could seem to not splatter myself.
But on the road I’ve gotten lots of practice. Aren’t you proud mama?
I’m letting myself
get all hairy too. It’s kinda
crazy cuz for most of my life I’ve shaved almost every day. My toenails were always painted and I
even blow dried my hair for a while there. Now I am meeting parts of myself that I’ve never
known! Weird! I realize I’ve never known what I truly
look like, without any alterations.
For the first time since I was 12 I am not seeing my legs as sexual
objects. The beauty of my armpits
is not more important than truly knowing and honoring myself. I have to admit that for a while
there I didn’t want to lift up my arms cuz I thought people would be grossed
out but little by little that's less important and now my bushy
armpits make me feel rather cool.
And you know that style of jewelry that’s all beads and
shells and seeds? The kind thats
often brightly colored and sometimes really big? Don’t tell my new friends but I always thought that kind of
jewelry was kind of tacky. But it
turns out for some, wearing it is a source of pride and an act of
rebellion. The pride comes from
using products that celebrate a closeness with and respect for nature. The rebellion is against systems and
industries that radically damage the earth and its inhabitants… In this case,
specifically against gold and gem mining.
I want to try to explain what I’m understanding about this rebellion… We
all know that folks from Europe came to the Americas, among other reasons, in
the wild search for gold. They
killed, raped, pillaged and exploited in the name of progress. What I didn’t know is that this
conquest is still in progress.
That was 500 years ago and all that gold got used up. But the demand for it hasn’t gone
anywhere so the conquest continues.
So many communities that I visit here share the story of being forced
either physically or by poverty, to leave their land to big mining companies
from Canada, Europe and the U.S.
All of the sudden wearing jewelry made of beads and seeds is a lot more
appetizing.
The last thing I want
to talk about are my crusty feet.
For real, this is a big deal for me cuz like I said, I used to paint my
toe nails all the time. There wasn’t a day that I didn’t have a
perfect pedicure. Now, oy vey,
I’ve got callouses and infinite desert sand under my toenails. The callouses
are kind of useful though cuz they’re great for scratching the millions of bug
bites all over my hairy legs!
Oh the
sacrifices we make for our dreams… |
:) thanks darlin! :)
ReplyDeleteSara, do remember asking me about my armpit hair on Cumberland one year? It stuck with me because I was suddenly really embarrassed about it. I've always gone back and forth when it comes to feeling pride for my hairy armpits. This is so gratifying to read- Ha ha hairy armpit girl! you like it!!!! But really, it makes me super happy to hear that you are finding pride in this. You should. Your body is glorious, however you let it grow.
ReplyDeleteOh no Emilia!! Im so sorry for having made you feel embarrassed! What did I ask you??
ReplyDeleteThank you girl, I am embracing that more and more everyday :)